I'm Going to Be Like SUPER Hungry......and Nervous!

So I get my port today. I am nervous. I have never been under anesthesia before. It's not a total "knock out", but something they call twilight anesthesia, I think it's similar to what people get when they get a colonoscopy, but I am not really 100% sure. I have been reassured over and over that this is "no big deal", but the fact of the matter is this, it's a big deal to ME and that's all that really matters in this particular situation. Part of it is fear of going under, part is fear of the actual procedure, but I think a bigger part of it is this is the first thing {besides my frequent trips to the cancer center and my black and blue boobie} that will really mark me as a CANCER PATIENT! Boooooo for that, but really I suppose it's truly marking me as a future cancer SURVIVOR and THRIVER {<---- I don't think that's actually a word, but it should be!}. I am also not looking forward to not being able to pick up the boys, because you know those sweet things want me to carry them to bed every night. :~)

The good thing is the port should make administration of treatment drugs easier as well as making blood draws and anything that would normally require an IV a piece of cake. I have heard that most people LIKE having their port {but certainly aren't sad to see it go when the time comes}. However, I have also recently stumbled across a few port horror stories, I was not looking for them, they just happened to pop up in something I was already reading. Please please let me be one of the "no big deal it was a piece of cake and I ate a cheeseburger right after" stories. That's more my style. Plus, I am going to be STARVING because I can't eat or drink and the dang procedure isn't even supposed to start until 2:30pm, which in hospital speak means I could very well be waiting until the moon is out and the wolves are howling before this show gets on the road!

For those of you are interested, because I know some friends have asked me, click here for an explanation of the port-a-cath and the procedure for it's placement.

PS - I am currently watching Daniel Tiger's Neighborhood {I suppose only my PBS watchin' mommy friends might know what that is} and it's the "don't be afraid to go to the doctor" episode. How perfect is that. Basically the message I have taken away so far is, "Just close your eyes and think of something happy", so there you go. :)